Monthly Archives: July 2004

Going…going…gone!

listening to: unka khayal – VS
thinking about: bob!

Only 2.75 days left here!Then i’m gonnnnnnnnnnee…not for good, obviously, but let’s just say that to further support my current feelings :) A brand new start, a brand new place and brand new ppl; i wonder how that’ll turn out. As a very wise person once said (u know who u are, and enjoy the compliment;)), whenever you’re setting out to do something, just remember to: “Expect the worst, hope for the best.” And surprisingly enough, it’s an all-rounder philosophy, isn’t it?Applies to practically everything we do…but quite sadly, doesn’t apply to everyONE. Anywho let’s put my mission to convert every living being to pessimissm aside for the time being. There are bigger fish to fry! (does happen for a reason, even if the reason is conveniently tucked away in a dark corner. Tried and tested, believe you me.

On that note, I depart…

Just perfect!

listening to: gori gori – mein hoon naa
thinking about: alice in wonderland

We all know life’s not perfect. In fact it’s just about as imperfect as imperfect gets. And despite all the anamolies of life, we seem to be quite content most of the time, because we’ve made this little bubble for ourselves. A bubble of idealistic thoughts. A bubble of false pretentions and impressions. I see it as a picture: we’ve all painted a picture of our lives, which is as pretty as ppl want it to be. On the inside, however, we’ve got a whole other game going on. There are mainly 2 types of paints: those of the heart and of the mind. The rules are simple: splash the colours of the heart on a canvas labelled “Mind” and colours of the mind on a canvas labelled “Heart”. The objective? Get the right mix. And the game really begins when your actions as a person reflect those pictures, no matter how messy they are. The beauty of it is that nobody can see what’s on the inside. Hence, if you’ve followed me correctly, YOU get to decide how these pictures look. This way, the ppl see the painting they want to see, and you and you alone get to look at two perspectives of your life. The result: everybody’s happy!

As vague as that may have sounded, it doesn’t end there. The truth is, nobody’s happy. The world has been taking its turn for the worse as we know it. Now for the finger-pointing…
Have we, as the complex beings we are, brought all of this on to ourselves? I mean, when i was driving (being driven, actually) around town the other day, i couldn’t help but notice how far this boring little city has come. The skyscrapers, the people, the fashion, the scenery…and most of all, the way of thinking. Where did those great times go, when you could say “Hello” to a random person walking by without being stared and glared at? There’s no shame in lying anymore. Nor in gossipping, back-biting, revealing, stealing, killing…and the list is never ending. The phrase “You’ve crossed your limits now” has no meaning whatsoever, simply because limits don’t even exist anymore. The saddest part is, it’s accepted, not only here, but on a much wider scale.
Hmmmm…right. OK. Enough for today.

No , really?

listening to: snores
thinking about: life

There are some things that just simply amaze me. In fact,lots of things amaze me. Here are a couple that I find myself wondering about (may i add, on a daily basis)…oh, and maybe after reading them, we may find something in common?

  • why do ppl love talking so much?there are only so many ways of getting thru to your listener
  • why are we never thankful for what we have?
  • dreams: fascinating.The more unrealistic, the better
  • how many ants do we kill in a day, or even a second?
  • what if we were ants?
  • what if the chicken and the egg actually came into existence at exactly the same time, on a little package labelled “Potential Controversy”?
  • rainbows – they’re gorgeous
  • what’s the deal with unkept promises??
  • the sky – it’s so deep
  • brad pitt (need i elaborate?)
  • rock music(let’s just get to the point : elvis!!)

Will keep adding as i find more…:)

Addictive

listening to: dunya – seeen
thinking about: shopping lists

This place is quite addictive…can’t stop publishing stuff.Except, nobody’s even reading it! It’s becoming sort of like an online diary, which is exactly what i’d hoped it wouldn’t be. Oh well, i’m enjoying myself, so couldn’t really care less.
The coming month shall be exciting…i get to shop!It’s not that i absolutely love shopping, it’s just that, this time around, i get to do it based on the assumption that money in fact, does grow on trees.Very rarely do opportunities such as these arise, so I’m planning to take FULL advantage of it :P

Back from Munchkinland

listening to: yesterday – the beatles
thinking about: yesterday, of course

It finally worked out!! I’m so glad we could all make it happen…Although the after-effects weren’t really welcoming, it was totally worth it….i mean it always is :) Getting to spend even a minute with you guys is so great, but the whole day (plus night,not to mention) is awesome, totally unforgettable!
Today’s sad. In fact from now on, it’ll always be this way.For the most part I’m used to it , with friends all over the place, but it’s just plain depressing. Different time tables,seeing less and less of each other etc etc. Saying bye is one of the hardest things to do : are you supposed to cry? or laugh so that ppl don’t feel upset? do u do it in a few words? or avoid too much blabber,which eventually ends up in a whole mess of emotions? Those are honestly, the things running through my mind when saying bye to someone (or trying to, at least)- esp. to friends u’ve been seeing everyday for the past gazillion years, and who more or less become like family. All’s that’s left is memories of all those fabulous times spent together.And hope, of course. Hope that it doesn’t all have to end with a “goodbye”. Hope that you won’t lose touch. That you’ll make it a point to meet each other, even if it’s only for a couple of minutes. And most important: hope that you’ll never forget those memories.
Ok u kno what, now i’m sounding more and more like someone i really don’t want to sound like right now, so i’ll stop. Plus i’m signing off now, so let’s make it on a good note. MUNCHKINS! I must’ve had like close to 15 munckins today. Glazed, Bavarian, Sugared and many more…those little drops of heaven are quite dangerous : gave me a major headrush!And if that wasn’t enough, they’re triggering some pretty freaky mood swings too…